5:17 PM

Well hello Universe

Apparently you've given up being subtle with me? Lol



Ok, I get it. I have some work to do. You don't have to be like that.

6:37 PM

Not quite new year but new list

Based on the current catch and release program I have going on with online dating I need to get clearer about what I'm looking for instead of "I'll know it when I see it" or rather feel it in my case....or maybe hear it...half the battle is an inability to string a conversation together...and then it's having a sense of humor.

And before that sounds too bitchy, yes I mostly try to be nice and gracious since I realize for some it isn't easy to put yourself out there.  For others it is apparently way too easy....so far my all time so off-side it was funny message had to be a very first email where I was told he'd do me on a black mink coat.....no hi, hey, hello, heyyyyyy or any preliminaries lol.  more forward than after last call when the lights are coming on...and are mink black...and who has a coat like that nowadays?

I'm also clear that as much as everybody isn't my cup of tea, I'm not for everyone either.  One correspondence ended in all caps that not only was I rude but I was missing out because he has a "KIND AND HONEST HEART!!".  I'm quite certain I've frustrated the hell out of some men in my past but usually we get past email before I do that...who knew I possessed that power?

Although I don't like feeling old I'm pretty sure that skateboards do nothing for me particularly paired with an age bracket over 40.  I also frankly don't possess enough coordination to be anywhere near ramps and wheels and on icy mornings it's all I can do not to fall off the deck on the way to the garage so I'm not likely a great match if those are your favorite pastimes.

Anyways, new book, new approach to "the list" and a girlfriend in another city waiting to do a bookclub-like discussion over long distance wine....better keep reading and writing.  House lists are easier lol


9:00 PM

Moving by the numbers....

10 + 2 = years and months in Calgary
1 + 3 = rental and houses
1st  = new house - and yard project was in Calgary
7  = jobs and 1 incorporation
Many = good friends I was lucky to make
4 = vehicle changes
611 = kms to Saskatoon
1117  = sq ft of new project opportunity
1 = new job
2 = weeks of dogsitting requested now going on 7 I think...plus guilt
5 = hrs closer to Winnipeg
47 = days of upheaval and counting
0 = well done goodbyes
Uncounted = moments of wow, moments of learning, moments of weakness, moments too in my own head; hope to return to being a better friend, auntie, daughter and employee asap....in a future life I'd like to request organization skills and zen

Throw in some moments of pause mixed with excitement and stress and that's 1 big move.

7:22 PM

A piece of quiet

My tenant neighbors have moved out.  No more frat house next door.

Next up....installing new faucets, sod and landscaping...and a for sale sign.

After 12 months of noise, lack of sleep and stress I think it's time to go back to detached.  Likely more renos but also more peace.  Living and learning!


8:18 PM

Almost 2 yrs of radio silence

Still learning about myself.  Still dating.  Still chasing the idea of running.

No longer a quasi rural girl.  Now a city girl.  Way more social life.  Sometimes miss my neighbors and the smaller city.  Don't miss my commute.

Have tried new things.  Horseback riding.  Skiing.  New tunes on a new shuffle.  New decor.  New vehicle.  Then new job....self-employed.  Scared shitless at first.

Lost a boyfriend.  And a child in my life.  Lost Boo.  Lost perspective.

Gained new friends.  Gained some new confidence.  Renewed a contract.  Renewed an interest in school.  Renewed an interest in dating...sometimes.

This year....need to run a 5k.  Need to book some camping sites.  Need quieter neighbors.  Need some vacation.